It has been one full week since my layoff from work due to my contracted position being eliminated. Keep this in mind if you are unhappy at work being laid off is a good thing and allows you to collect EI while exploring new opportunities.
So I had always thought about starting a business on my own but never really invested the time to not only think about the potential, but to plan, evaluate and execute if one of my ideas actually had legs. I have had some time to think over the past week, and while having the free time was nice, I have also been having some mixed feelings/emotions. Some good and some not so good and they seem to rotate throughout each day.
Uncertainty, this comes about because I have never really made a transition like this without having another job lined up. This feeling of uncertainty comes and goes all the time I feel it is just something I will need to get used to for the time being.
Excitement, I realize that I have an opportunity to work for myself and build my own schedule based around something that I have a passion for and an interest in. Going to school for business and marketing I have had the pleasure of seeing some friends of mine do the same and really enjoy it. I have always wondered if I would have the courage to take the plunge myself, and here I am finally seeing what I am capable of.
Anxiety, my third feeling is a learned pressure of the typical work day and a schedule that has been set in my mind from the grind of a 9-5 job over the years. I find myself walking my dog around 9am and playing with her in my yard when it hits me. "I should be doing work" or "What should I really be doing right now?" These feelings are like that feeling I would get on a Sunday afternoon when I was back in high school and had not completed my homework. It's an unsettling, anxious feeling.
These feelings are for the time being on an endless cycle and it is starting to get better as time passes. The excitement is beginning to take over and the more I speak with friends and family about what my plans. I know now after reassuring myself that I am putting in the time however, it just might not be between the hours of 9-5. I am thinking about my plans all day, even when I am sleeping. I sometimes wake up with new ideas and write them down in a book so I can keep track of what I am working on. I will even have to consider this blog as putting in the time because once my business website is up and running it will be linked to allow the future users to see where it all started. The great thing is, this doesn't feel like work, I enjoy it, and that is how work should feel.
I finally have the time to fully dedicate myself to something that I believe in and it feels good.
I want to start my own business and work for myself. This is something I know I am capable of and I know I will succeed.
Check back from time to time as I will be sharing some of the ideas and plans that I have, and the progress I have made. At this point I need to finalize a few more things before I share everything with the digital world.
Thanks for your interest,
Brian
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